today, i am a naughty girl again. i decided to prolong my weekend, myself. so instead of heading down for class, i went for a swim. during the swim, i began to think of what i really want out of my life. i swam one lap, two laps, and nothing came across my mind

i seem to live a life with no goal in my mind. yes, i would want to have a great job & fantastic salary, upon graduation. but there is something else that is missing. there are many elements of life that is not there. i began to ponder on my own definition of "great" and "fantastic".

what is my dream-job? would i prefer to meet up with people or do an analysis? would i like a desk-bound job or a mobile one? would i like to be questioned or questioning others? would i want to spend long hours in my job? i swam a few more laps and these questions were still unanswered.

i am begininng to get worried.

i don't want to start on the job that is waiting for me, just to realise that is not what i really want. but if questioned what i want, i can't answer it myself. what is wrong with me?

is just a stage of my life that i have to go through, the stage when i am about to graduate and not knowing what to do. or am i just too worried to swim in the competitive working environment?

i wonder if anyone else is experiencing the same anxiety as me...

mood:*worried*

i know it's 20-days late
but the year is still rather new, right?
if any of you had to face any stumbling block in these 20 days,
forget about them and
i wish you will have a BLASTFULer year ahead!

every year, most people will have new resolutions, etc.
but for me, i think i have an eye for something in this new year.
guess what it is?

an eye for mature and charming guys!!!

I daresay that I am lucky enough to have 2 of them as my Profs!!

one is down-to-earth, can talk anything under the sun,
likes to drink beer and eat rice cracker
i think his sideview look a tad like Dick Lee.

another one is a nerdy-and-scholarly looking,
great build for a Prof,
the kind that can wear anything and still look good.

and to add to my collection of eyecandies,
i saw another one when i caught
Memoirs of Geisha yesterday
tada!

i think he looks damn good for his age.
Can you even see that he's 47??
perhaps when you see the wrinkles,
but if you just squint one eye...
he's damn cute lah!

feel: *naughty*