you say, God says

You say: "It's impossible"
God says: All things are possible
( Luke 18:27)
You say: "I'm too tired"
God says: I will give you rest
( Matthew 11:28-30)
You say: "Nobody really loves me"
God says: I love you
( John 3:16 & John 3:34 )
You say: "I can't go on"
God says: My grace is sufficient
(II Corinthians 12:9 & Psalm 91:15)
You say: "I can't figure things out"
God says: I will direct your steps
(Proverbs 3:5-6)
You say: "I can't do it"
God says: You can do all things
(Philippians 4:13)
You say: "I'm not able"
God says: I am able
(II Corinthians 9:8)
You say: "It's not worth it"
God says: It will be worth it
(Roman 8:28)
You say: "I can't forgive myself"
God says: I Forgive you
(I John 1:9 & Romans 8:1)
You say: "I can't manage"
God says: I will supply all your needs
(Philippians 4:19)
You say: "I'm afraid"
God says: I have not given you a spirit of fear
( II Timothy 1:7)
You say: "I'm always worried and frustrated"
God says: Cast all your cares on ME
(I Peter 5:7)
You say: "I don't have enough faith"
God says: I've given everyone a measure of faith
(Romans 12:3)
You say: "I'm not smart enough"
God says: I give you wisdom
(I Corinthians 1:30)
You say: "I feel all alone"
God says: I will never leave you or forsake you
(Hebrews 13:5)

the effect of a good music is a mystery to me.
i was feeling a little bored, so i turned to browsing people's blog, friendster, etc.
then when i saw the picture of the lao ah ma in ph's blog,
i remembered "Da Chang Jin" and i play the soundtrack that ph sent me.
it was therapeutic!
Now i am fully energized to study for my last so called quiz.

with my parents being in town....
i eat LOTS and lots of good food.
yesterday we went to old restaurant along Katong
that sells good old char siew and pork.
we had roast duck and nice tasty wanton for dinner.
i had rice dumpling for breakfast today
and mouth watering sashimi and other Jap food for dinner.
of course, not to forget the Japanese cheesecake and muachee....
then just before we left Parkway Parade,
we had waffles at gelare...

talk about sinful pigging out...
i think i would have gained loads when they leave town.

... and i receive good news today!
thank you to the Man above! *muacks*

also i am damn stressed out cause
there are lots to do and so little time...
i shall borrow Ph's line -
everything is eventual.
and talking about Ph remind me about
my love for my 10-11 tv timeslot.
i feel so motivated after watching it.

... and this is sooooo random
that i better stop!

the tweeny in me

suddenly, i'm feeling like a tweeny again -
that's when i have crush on someone from a distance
and cursing&swearing another girl who is getting closer to him.

okay, maybe it's not a crush, it's just a lust.
a lust for someone who's beyond my reach?!?!?
urrrghhhh
what's wrong with me?
i should stop having a crush or a lust on anyone.

it's bad for my health, my mind, practically my whole wellbeing.
but again this someone is too perfect to be unmentioned
cause the checklist is all ticked,
and even have extra ticks on it.

bla... i hate this feeling...

i am trying to recall what i did when this happened to me years back.
but i can't recall. what i recalled is my list of crush/lust:

sec 1: HOhohoho
sec 2: sarsarsar
sec 3: sosososo
year 1: the bv&dhs boy and the "toad"
year 2: tctctctctctc

so much of my twenny life and i should get back to my book
cause the macho prof is giving us a quiz next week.

mood:*dorky*

had one of the more relaxing weekend this week.

after getting concussed on friday, i had an early night. 1 am was decent enough, considering that i sleep at weird hours these days. but still, the 8 hours was insufficient for me to recover and my head was still heavy at 9am on sat. crawled out of bed lazily and dragged myself to school for a meeting. finally reached school at 10plus and i had meeting till 1plus. seems like the project is progressing at a good pace, and i really do hope fri's presentation will turn out well.

sis sms me to tell me that she would having lunch at ps, and i took up the offer to tag along with her and her beau. i had a great appetite that afternoon and i had mediterranean pizza, lasagna, chicken wings, salad and soup... what a sinful lunch. then sis was telling me that both of them had tickets to "Failure to Launch". i (again) want to tag along cause i badly want to watch Sarah Jessica Parker. lucky for me, my bro-in-law was nice enough to give away his ticket to me! how lucky i am!! Failure to Launch was ah okay. not that great, but it does lift up some spirit in me! Little Match Girl was having a sale and i couldn't resist but bought myself some stuffs. 2 skirts and a bag. Had a japanese ice cream, but it was not that great. i had a great saturday despite the busy period. hehhehee. had an early night again cause i still could not recover from the bad night i had on thurs.

though today is a sunday, i woke up at 730 to go for a breakfast party hosted by Bobbi Brown. the breakfast spread was mouth-watering.... the make-up expert was also experienced aka he gave us lots of tips and is one of those sessions that i think i did learn something. the new make up range is nice, but the balance in the bank does not seem to agree, so it has to wait eh..

then i had tuition in which my tutee went on and on from his trip to hk, his cousins, his pets, his neighbours. oh man! he's one of the noisiest boy i ever met! it took him like 30 mins to tell me all that... what a good listener i was to 15 year old rantings!! watt cancelled the meeting today cause she had some urgent matter to attend to, so i went home to do some stuffs attended evening mass. the little girl behind me was irritatingly cute, cause she screeched as she sang the hymn! but it's a nice feeling to hear little kids sing hymns.

now, i am sitting here typing and watching the final of dunnowhat star thingy on ch8. My first time watching and i think the winner wins cause of his 6packs and average looks.

all rightie, i think next week will be a good week! i'm starting the week by having a meeting with watt,annie and alex, and then i'm off to see my sis and beau having their pre-wedding shots. parents coming to town on thurs and i end my week with presentation. i have a good feeling bout next week and i have to get some drinks now..

have a good one, everyone!

mood: thirsty

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the horrid last weeks of school

the number of hours that I sleep
this week are countable.
sun: 4 hours
mon: 4.5 hours
tues: 3 hours
wed: 4.5 hours
thurs: 2 hours
and i'm surprised my brain can still function!

the cause of this lack of sleep
is none other than
2 individual assignments
1 project presentation
and of course, work-in-progress of other projects!

i am deprived of everything ranging from
sleep, social life, good food,etc
and my only consolation is that
it's the last week of schools, franny!!

i think i will miss the horrendous life of an undergraduate!

nnnnn i happened to meet the "inspirator" (again) today
and we stopped for a short chat.
somehow that short conversation
made me lengthen the "list".
oh! it's going to be hard fulfilling "it".

all rightie, i shall watch the 9 o'clock show
and continued with "A Jewel in the Palace".
i am such a tv-whore
and this entry is so incoherent...

mood:*tired*

friday - saturday

this is the 1st day of the week that
i can sleep
before 2am!
*yippie yay*

this week has been a busy,hectic, tiring week
lots of things have happened this week, such as:
*met my eye candy in church (after 2 weeks)
*went for a spiritual talk *met up with fangky (finally) and her colleague
*started my highly-paid tuition job *snigger*
*talked to a certain someone who gave me lots of inspiration
*went for a follow-up check up with the doc
*waxed and threaded
*stared at my computer to do the financial model
*finished one of my assignment way way before the deadline

but then, i can't go sentosa tmrw cause of the tons of work i have at hand
*booooooooooo*

anyways, here are some photos from the BBQ last saturday
at the Queen's palace a.k.a my house



off to bed for now...

mood:*exhausted*

i wanna read this, but i have no time yet.

weekend does not look good :(

weird things happened to me. like an unknown number who sms me in the middle of the day. so it goes like this

97838***: where r u?
me: who are you?
97838***: zijen. u want lunch?
(i would't mind if it's free :P)
me: i think you've got the wrong number.

but this zijen is so persistent that she has to call again to check whether i am telling the truth. she asked if it was the number of "mike-dunno-wat". ahhh.. so she was calling a guy. but to her disappointment, it's a girl who picked up. boo boo.

STOP thinking, brainy!

i just got back the result of my quiz and i am in an extremely happy mode! This is one of the few times in my university years that I managed to get above 85%!! what a reason to celebrate! but which got me thinking whether I am taking the right major or degree. *what a silly question to ask when I am in my last sem right?* but really, I seem to do better in other subjects, except accounting subjects. For example, in previous sem, my score for international econs is comparable to an econs major student. The score that i just received is also satisfying, considering that i do better than someone who is 100% attentive in class, while I skip a class, don't do assignment and barely listen to 80% of the class. I read on my own and I can still understand it, no problemo as compared to some accounting modules.bla. whatever the case is, I have taken a second major and I should stop thinking about being in the right place!

Another "did i make the right decision" thought came across when I met my manager last wed. It's quite scary to note that she wants to "book" me in the same job that I did when I was an intern! it's scary because the place is like an iceland. the accountant is a grouchy old lady who still uses the traditional accounting book. the book can be rather complicating. and all my seniors are gone. so many reasons to scare me!! on the contrary, it is nearby a very nice loh mee place and accesible to good food which means i will have a good lunch when i am on that job. but that is only one good reason to keep me happy! arrghhh. a partner commented that he was surprised I still come back. OoOoOooO. does that mean that he also knows about her? so did i make the right decision?

*sigh*

i should stop thinking... if only i could tell my brain to "STOP THINKING" and "GET DOWN TO WORK!!"

mood:*mellow*

i am feeling restless right now
i feel that everything that is going on around me is not right
and i can't seem to express my feelings to anyone,
except The Guy Above
.bla.
i hate feeling like this
i hope it will go away soon