sometimes you have friends who treat you badly in front of your not-so-close-friends and you began to wonder whether these people are your friends. would a real friend treat you that bad? would they put you to your lowest self?

the question that i am pondering is "why are they doing this?", are they just putting up a front so that they could look good and you don't?

well, i don't know whether i am being sensitive but at least this is how i have been feeling for the past few days. no doubt, these people might have their own credentials, but if every time i have to put up with snide remarks, i don't think i would like their company that much.

so please... respect me as much as i respect you and there would be peace in the world.

i can't believe that i've been working for 5 weeks already. tomorrow is another friday when my colleagues and I will party after work. it's funny how i am getting used to working life. waking up at 7 in the morning and get out of house by 8, sometimes a little after 8. squeezed with the crowd and stand all the way from home to office. take part in the change alley race in my heels, shortcut to arcade and walah!! i reach office.

what i am not used to is the feeling of being invisible. they don't us and we don't know them. luckily someone initiated to start a campaign "to be visible and you need us". and i am very supportive about it cause in this world, we have to show people who we are. at least that's my opinion.

lunch is more or less there, but there's not much choice to choose from. i usually go to golden shoe, banquet, circular road, far east square. if you have any recommendation, feel free to let me know.

allrightie, i am going to sleep now.

the last phone conversation that i had with my mother
made me rethink whether i have made the right decision
to go back this coming weekend
for my cousin's wedding.

sometimes, i am just annoyed with my mother for
not understanding how outspoken i can be.
and what's wrong with letting my hearts out to her??

gggrrrrrrrrrr