the tweeny in me

suddenly, i'm feeling like a tweeny again -
that's when i have crush on someone from a distance
and cursing&swearing another girl who is getting closer to him.

okay, maybe it's not a crush, it's just a lust.
a lust for someone who's beyond my reach?!?!?
urrrghhhh
what's wrong with me?
i should stop having a crush or a lust on anyone.

it's bad for my health, my mind, practically my whole wellbeing.
but again this someone is too perfect to be unmentioned
cause the checklist is all ticked,
and even have extra ticks on it.

bla... i hate this feeling...

i am trying to recall what i did when this happened to me years back.
but i can't recall. what i recalled is my list of crush/lust:

sec 1: HOhohoho
sec 2: sarsarsar
sec 3: sosososo
year 1: the bv&dhs boy and the "toad"
year 2: tctctctctctc

so much of my twenny life and i should get back to my book
cause the macho prof is giving us a quiz next week.

mood:*dorky*