...wallgazer...

sometimes, it takes another person to do something that is uncalled for to make you swear to yourself that you wouldn't do what the person did as it would just trouble other people but yourself.

you see, i've a senior who is going away in a matter of weeks. 1.5 weeks to be exact and he would not be with the firm anymore. but on this very job, which happens to be his second last job, he could not care less to lead the team. he allocated himself very few sections, he had no intention to review it and he is not at all responsible. at least to me, he only knew how to be a boot licker to the manager and say flowery words to us to make us feel elevated. but to me, enough is enough.

so today, he asked me if i would be able to finish my parts by this friday. and i gave him an answer "i don't know" and he murmured "how could i say to the manager i don't know". at that very moment, i felt like asking to do some introspection as to what level of contribution and responsibility has he done in this team to have the cheek to give an answer to the manager. and after he smsed the manager "we will try", he said to us "at least, we have given him a positive answer".

as a person who have principle, i hope that i will never ever compromise myself like that. be responsible when you have to be and be accountable on the things that you do. don't just laze around thinking that going away is an excuse to your low standards of work.

this is the first time that i ever rant so much about a senior; my colleague has to put up with my complaints everyday everytime something occurs. i do hope that when i look back at this post in the years to come, i won't be doing the very same thing as what he did.

no wonder manager Y said to someone who was leaving to "do your last job well or you can expect to have zero job offers".

i wish someone can tell this particular senior that very same line.